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written by: a friend who drowned in tears

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我是个大白痴. . .

我猜不透你. . .

不知道你再多的温柔也不会属于我. .

我说服我自己 这一切只是友情，

可是坠入的感觉还在，

我的心好累 说要自由，

因为不想再次只剩我独自在角落流泪. . .

望着手表 问着，

忘记那种感觉需要多久. .

这情节不断的重复. . .

跟自己说了好几百次 要重新开始自己的明天 ，

答应自己不再为你掉泪，

我了解 但还是躲不开多次的伤害. . .

是我笨 总以为我已回到原点. . .

原来还在徘徊. . .

你就像电脑病毒 中了就必须消除所有，

不能保留 我想我们最大的错就是在相遇的那一刻，

不擦肩而过. . .

沉默~ 只因为我怕我掩饰的不够好. . .

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PLC 经典格言：

宁愿爱情在望不见终点的跑道上前进，也不要在同一条轨道重覆的公转。
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I OWNED NOTHING IN THIS POST.

非本人之作。

烟火 ~ 火柴的心声( 九 )

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*经过一番查询，证实此传闻属实。*

最近有可靠消息指某位友人移情别恋，另有新欢。恭喜啦！迷失已久，终于到达下一站了。祝你好运。

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这消息除了可喜可贺，还蛮可笑的。当初呢，那位友人曾对我的助理说些类似誓言或立志的话，指自己会一直等待“她”(前任对象)，就算再过个一两年也不放弃。那时候，听了觉得：wo~痴情的咧！但，老实说可信度不高。原因是，那位友人走的是“烟火”路线。这番话是在年头说的，时光飞逝，都已是六月了。看吧！一年未到就转换目标，人心呐...... *开玩笑的啦。*

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注释

烟火：比喻一刹那光辉并不代表永恒。烟火在燃烧的那数秒很灿烂，但总是那么的短暂。

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P.S. 这只是少数代表的例子。耍痴心情长剑的还是大有人在。

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纯属娱乐性质。

Recent favourite quotes (II)

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趁着热闹 配合说笑 遮盖了疲劳
勉强假笑 撒谎说到人生真美好
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好想大叫
网上闲逛 卻避不開 催淚的曲調
邊说邊笑 面具取下 我立刻垮掉

还在搞笑 独自一人 不知怎麼熬
含泪微笑 自我安慰我能办得到
自以为坚强 才醒觉自己一直在逞强
捍卫倔强
强颜微笑 躲在死角 眼淚拼命掉
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當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了

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The hole came back, the way it always did when I was free from distrations, but it didn’t throb so badly around the edges.

There's an awful view behind my mask, a view that people normally beg not to see. The hole is too deep... no distraction can possibly reduce the pain.

As much as it hurt me, I knew it was better for him that he was avoiding me. Easier for him.

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我觉得自己的心语都赤裸地摆在脸上。以往令我引以为傲的演技，到哪去了？当初尤如超人般地勇于面对，一刻都不曾逃避，跌倒了也马上站起来；如今只想忘记，逃离现状，无法再撑了。

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在环境的压迫下﹐是否能变得更坚強不屈﹖还是像乌龟似的﹐越靠近越想退縮﹖

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This had to be it, the way to escape-adrenaline plus clanger plus stupidity. I was free, free from struggles, worrisome and most of all secrets. I like it. It was happiness that can't be described.

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Outside is raining but the sky is still bright with sunshine. Odd weather. Just like my current mood, metaphorically. I was depressed but still tough and full of optimism.

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The guilt of being treated like the-only-one.The pressure of your patience.All these are way too much.... like a guilty PLEASURE.
As I promised to myself, no more blaming, no more apology, and the most important is no more hiding. That's only one thing I want, I want you to be happy in your way.
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