Music

Friday, December 18, 2009

愛不單行

找不到人說
心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂
怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定
在一起的那个人
很多人都像我
一個人過生活

愛
只有簡單筆畫
卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能將幸福留下

愛
是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我
愛不單行
別害怕


用不完身邊
氾濫的自由
開始怕孤單
是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人
為何在天黑以後
還是寧願回到
愛情那個枷鎖

我在等一個人
在等我的永恒

告訴我
愛不單行
相信它

Saturday, December 12, 2009

傻

等待,
很傻吗?
不需要任何人知晓,
不奢望你的回头,
不干涉你的人生。
我不是被动,
而是害怕伤痛。


逃避,
很傻吗?
面对,
不定能解决。
逃避,
又何成不是一种
低风险的解决方式?
我不是没有勇气,
只是选择了安静。


坚持,
很傻吗?
有谁
能预知未来?
现在的NO,
或许是明日的YES。
我不想死缠着你,
但请不要剥夺
我爱你的权力。


留恋,
很傻吗?
如果真有忘情水,
我愿意用尽一切换取它。
藕断丝连,
有谁会比我痛?
我想忘掉,
又有谁能帮我?

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Trying to Stop Living Like Luna



For a while now, I've been one of those girls who could never live up to the expectations of this world, and never really tried to anyway. For a while now, I've never cared what everyone else thinks. This is going to stop. I think it's time to stop living too much like Luna Lovegood. It's time to care what everyone else thinks and not just be what I like to be. It's time to hear what other people's thoughts about me and try to take it.

I used to think more like this but now I am going to try on something like this. I don't think I'll ever stop thinking that someone is better than me, but I'll just put that out of my head. From now on, I will always appreciate and love the people who like me no matter how nerdy and unattractive I am. Only the tolerant people. And I'm going to remember that, no matter how obnoxious and ugly I am, God and my family and my true friends will always love me.

I'll still dress how I want, but I will open to MORE options. Now, I am going to start pleasing everyone around me. As long as I stay a good person, there is no reason to feel bad about some changes.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

What my birth month say about me...

For Evanna Lim who birth on month August below are What Your Birth Month Says About You :

* Loves to joke
* Attractive
* Suave and caring
* Brave and fearless
* Firm and has leadership qualities
* Knows how to console others (instead of knw I think I like to)
* Too generous and egoistic
* Taked high pride of oneself
* Thirsty for praises
* Extraodinary spirit
* Easily angered
* Angry when provoked
* Easily jealous
* Observant
* Careful and cautious
* Thinks quickly
* Independent thoughts
* Loves to lead and to be led
* Loves to dream
* Talented in the arts, music and defence
* Sensitive but not petty
* Poor resistance against illnesses T_T
* Learns to relax
* Hasty and rushy
* Romantic
* Loving and caring
* Loves to make friends


Monday, November 9, 2009

PRIVATE PIC

A few day before when I was cleaning up my room, I found something that's useless but not meaningless.It was my photo... also called as X-ray.



There's a bunch of X-rays in this bag.



All X-rays are in these big envelopes.... got UM Hospital & Assunta Hospital & others.




Receipts & appointment card...





I realized that I got this disease when I was 6. ---- SCOLIOSIS

Definition:
Amedical condition in which a person's spine is curved from side to side, shaped like an "s" or "c", and may alsobe rotated.To adults it can be very painful. It is an abnormal lateral curvature of the spine. On anx-ray, viewed from the rear, the spine of an individual with a typical scoliosis may look more like an "S" or a "C" than a straight line.It is typically classified as congenital (caused by vertebral anomalies present at birth), idiopathic (sub-classified as infantile, juvenile, adolescent, or adult according to when onset occurred) or as neuromuscular, having developed as a secondary symptom of another condition, such as spina bifida, cerebral palsy, spinal muscular atrophy or due to physical trauma. [from Wikipedia]

HERE is just some of it.


OCT 1999


JAN 2000

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AUG 2000

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MAY 2002



DEC 2002



SEPT 2003


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APR 2004
The curve became more serious. In 2006, I had a surgery.
Sugery is usually indicated

for curves that have a high likelihood of progression, curves that cause a significant amount of pain with some regularity, curves that would be cosmetically unacceptable asan adult, curves in patients with spina bifida and cerebral palsy that interfere with sitting and care, and curves that affect physiological functions such as breathing.

Surgery is usually required with a curve of 40 to 50 degrees but I waited until 80 degrees because once the surgery is done the height is 80 to 90 percent fixed.So, I waited after the puberty.

The surgery involves a combination of rods, screws, human made bones and wires fixing the spine and can apply stronger, safer forces to the spine than the Harrington rod. This technique is known as the Cotrel-Dubousset instrumentation, currently the most common technique for the procedure.
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***** after surgery *****

NOW...
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MARCH 2006



my favourite one...
This X-rays is to estimate the age of the growth of bones.



MAY 2006




OCT 2006

Saturday, November 7, 2009

时 光 隧 道

吓到 . . .

像掉入了时光隧道, “字”忆一个个重现在眼帘。感觉,很不好受。是恐慌,红血球除了输送氧气,同时间运载着恐慌。随着心跳的加速,很快地这感觉遍布了全身。


惊觉 . . .

原来,
那刻,
是低潮,
是艰熬。


怎么?
过去了,
才晓得?
回头望,
才感觉到?
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是迟钝?
是迷糊?
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.
害怕 . . .

已故,终已故。唯恐记忆的碎片残留在心房,恐惧倘佯于不防。

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

雨爱

窗外的天气
就像是
你多变的表情
.
下雨了
雨陪我哭泣
看不清
我也不想看清
离开你
我安静的抽离
不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里
学会放弃
.
听雨的声音
一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴
渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续
让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的
RAINIE LOVE
.
窗外的雨滴
一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气
像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
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雨爱的秘密
能一直延续
我相信我将会看到
彩虹的美丽



Thursday, August 27, 2009

雨爱的人

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我个人一直认为雨是为那些爱雨的人而下的。
上帝总是眷顾着那些戴面具的人,雨是上帝派来为他们卸掉保护色的天使。







当他们卸下护罩


雨将守护着他们脆落的灵魂


呼唤他们最真实的一页


倾听他们隐蔽的故事


释放他们压抑多时的心灵







天又降雨于我也,我贡上泪示馈意。
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